Rant #8

 

A Quiet Encounter at Tân Định Church

Nothing beats the beauty and power of calmness when you're in a church. There's something about churches that excites me and today was no exception. On my way home while exploring District 3 in Ho Chi Minh City, I happened to see a beautiful church — Tân Định Catholic Church.

Without a second thought, I told the driver I needed to stop. Surprisingly, he agreed. Of course, I still had to pay the full fare, right? I thought for a second if I should ask to pay only half, but nah… probably not. Hahaha.

As I stepped inside, I was struck by how solemn and colorful it was. The church was massive and stunning. But something unexpected happened a wave of sadness hit me. I didn’t understand why I felt that way. I wasn’t thinking about anything specific that should make me sad, but the feeling was there… heavy and sudden.

I sat down, took a deep breath, and began to reflect. It hit me, I haven't been to mass since I arrived here. And just like that, I realized what's been missing in my life: that connection with HIM. Being far from home, far from my usual routines, and far from Him made me feel lost. I had gone a whole year without attending mass not because I couldn't, but maybe because I lacked the motivation and simply forgot what was truly important.

I hope He can still forgive me.

I can't forget the heaviness in my heart at that moment. I began to cry silently. Maybe some tourists noticed and thought, “Is she pregnant and grieving her husband?” Hahaha, I know I must’ve looked dramatic, so I tried to stop crying before anyone thought I was going through some life or death drama.

But seriously if you ever visit a church, I hope you take a moment to pray or reflect. Too often, people are just busy taking selfies and forget the real purpose of why churches exist. Even if you’re not the religious type, please — just be respectful.

Life isn’t easy. It never really is. Sometimes, you feel lost and unsure of what path to take. But remember you're not alone. If you hold on to your faith, try your best to do good, and be kind life will find its way. Whatever happens, there's always a lesson, a purpose, and a direction behind it.

I’m still trying to be kind, even when I don’t always feel like I am. But believe me on this one.